So, for a little bit of life updates that I have been alluding to, I am moving! I have been wanting to move since October of 2020, and I was quite impatient waiting for this moment. On and off for the past year and a half I have been driving 3 hours a day to get to my place of work. I was an intern there for 7 months as a grad student, then came back a few months later to start working there.
This office has been incredible. It was such a blessing that fell into my lap back in January 2020. At the same time though, it has been exhausting to be living that far away.
Then the opportunity finally presented itself to where I could move closer to work! I am in such a great location that I feel completely giddy for this new chapter of life. I am 10min away from the beach, close to various shops/restaurants, the gym is on the way to work, and most importantly, driving is no longer a part time job.
This move (amongst all the other things happening in my life that I can’t share yet) is exactly what I needed to thrive. It has been challenging building a caseload of clients with not living in the community of where I work. Now I am excited to really put myself out there professionally to then continue to witness the growth. This move is such a huge milestone, and I am incredibly proud of myself.
Let me tell you something… the healing journey IS worth it.
I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted off my body. Even though the healing process is full of uncovering deeper layers of the self, that in turn connects you to deeper layers of pain at times. It’s worth it because this process also creates a life worth living. A life full of so much love, excitement, compassion, joy, and happiness.
I have been in somewhat of a fog the majority of my life. Not really knowing what direction to take. Not being present. I was just going through the motions. For the most part, I felt that I couldn’t complain, but I also wasn’t ever excited about my life.
Then the past 4 years have been deeply healing.
I have been confronting my trauma and doing the best I can to work through it. There were definitely consistent periods of dark waves throughout the years, but now, I am filled with an immense amount of excitement for living! It was like I kept doing the work, then one day it all fucking clicked.
I know a lot of people can feel scared to confront their problems because they are afraid to feel their pain and would rather continue to avoid it. I am here to tell you that the healing journey is not always heavy. For me, those 4 years were pretty heavy, but the time period where you experience the rough patch of healing varies for everyone. Even when it was heavy it was worth it because my life was changing. Bit by bit, trauma was no longer having control over my life.
Now the heaviness is gone and it’s like I get it. My brain has been thinking, “Oh shit! This is why it’s worth it!” My trauma no longer controls my life (which I have already been experiencing) AND I finally feel light. I feel free. And this… this is a new feeling.
Well, that is all I can share with you for now! I share a little bit more details on my podcast, in episode 37, if you would like to listen. Stay tuned for when I can discuss ALL of what’s been happening in my life recently. Just remember that working on yourself is always worth it!
When we see the light in ourselves, we create light in others.